I am sitting here in my favorite place to drink coffee while surrounded by older men. What am I doing? I am attending the Coots Club. I started attending this when I was in tenth grade. It's where a group of older retired men come to drink coffee and talk about what is going on in the town. So, basically it's a men's gossip club. The sounds of them talking and laughing make me smile. I have missed this. Not having to worry about time or whether I am doing something wrong, it's time to just be me and relax. I have a double starting at 11 today, but I am not thinking about that or what I need to do (laundry). All I am doing is sitting and bullsh*ting.
So what has been happening with my crazy hectic life? Well, my uncle is now visiting from New Jersey to help out with Grandpa. Luckily he is an RN and actually has the training to stay with him. I went to the movie Super 8 with him and my other uncle. The movie was amazing, just saying.
I was going to go to Valley Fair on Friday with my friends from college, however with the way my Grandpa is doing I am terrified to leave him even if it's just a day. I haven't been able to visit him much even though he is just down the road because of all my doubles. I know that my time with him is running out and I am so stressed that I won't be able to stop by and talk with him whenever I get the whim.
Then one must add the cost of going to Valley Fair into account. Driving down there and back will cost $70, the ticket will cost $40, and my food expenses will cost $50. That is a more than $200. I can't afford to spend $200 for just one day.
Then one must add in the time issue. It takes 3 1/2 hours to drive down there, which I would do Thursday night, go to Valley Fair on Friday then the drive back home would be 5 1/2 hours because Valley Fair is south of the cities. Add in more time for driving because everyone drives up to their cabin and I have to drive 6 1/2 hours to get home. The next morning I get to work at 5:30 in the morning and I am working another double that day, so I wouldn't be able to get off of work until 10pm at least.
To be honest, I am already exhausted and I think this trip would put me down for the count.
So, what will I be doing instead? Hanging with Gramps and doing my laundry, maybe even bake some cookies for him. All I know is that I am in serious need of a day off. People keep telling me that I'm running myself into the ground, and I know that I am, but how else will I pay for college? I am so worried about money and having enough of it that it keeps me going to work. So, how will I treat myself for all this working? Chocolate. And saving enough money for a spring break trip. That is what I am looking towards.
I just keep thinking about how happy and grateful I will be feeling when I can take a trip instead of working. I can already feel the sun shining down on my face and feel the chill of the winter thaw out of my bones. Of course this is only in my imagination because how summer has started, wet and gloomy. Whatever, I can stay in my imagination all day and just pretend that it's gorgeous out. If anyone needs to find me, I'll be in my happy place where the sun shines everyday.
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